To the Girl in the Mirror

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Girl in the mirror,

I want to start this off by saying I’m sorry if what I’m about to say hurts but I know it all needs to be said.

For years now I have been comparing you to someone that you are not.  I remember numerous times asking, “Why can’t you be like that?” or saying, “You’re not trying hard enough.”  I honestly cannot remember the last time I looked at you and was truly happy.  I have noticed other girls and wanted you to be exactly like them, which wasn’t fair to you.  I have said terrible things about you to your face; I have said so many things that I don’t even know how you can stand looking at me.

I have made life so much harder on you than what it should be.  I made you believe that if you just lost a few pounds, dressed like other girls, wore your hair a certain way, hid behind makeup, lived trying to be someone you aren’t you would eventually be happy.  I convinced you that you would never be enough unless you lived your life to please everyone else.  Sometimes I felt hate looking at you and I would also feel hate looking back.  Honestly, I just wanted to punch you to make you disappear for a while.

From day one I should have loved you; I should have been your safe place.  I sincerely apologize for all the times I tore you down.  It has taken me years to realize everything I was doing to you.  I ruined not only your outlook on yourself but also on life.  I pushed it to the point that you dreaded having to see me.  I should have told you to realize how amazing and blessed you truly are.  When you were going through hard times, I should have been there to help and not tear you down even more.  I should have always been there.

So girl in the mirror, I’m going to tell you something I never have.  You are a beautiful young woman with an amazing life ahead of you.  You might not look like all of the other girls but that is what makes you the real you.  If there is someone that doesn’t appreciate the real you, they aren’t worth your time.  Stop trying to lose all the weight, stop changing how you dress or how you wear your hair, wipe off all of that makeup, and be the real you!

I know how hard it is to trust my words after all the hurt I’ve caused, however, I swear to you that my words are true.  You are beautiful and you are enough.

Love Always,
Me

Happy Birthday!

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I feel like today, as well as every other day, the world should celebrate because this man is around. He is caring, hard working, loving, and truly so much more. This man has put his life before others for longer than I’ve been around. When he was younger he dreamed of becoming a firefighter, and with hard work as well as dedication he made that dream a reality. In today’s world many would worry more about his/her own being, but not this man. This man is my father, Chief Corbett as many know him. My dad inspires others to follow in his footsteps as many have chosen to be a firefighter, my brother being one. When the sound of the pager goes off, I watch both run out the door to make sure everything is safe. A fireman always puts the needs of others before him/herself with no questions asked. A fireman is the first in to save someone and the last out and always sacrifices their lives for others.

I have officially known this man for 22 years and I wouldn’t trade a second of our time together. I do not know what I would do without this man! He has stood by my side since the beginning. We may not always get along and he may refuse to take my blood for blood work, however, I know he is always there. Dad has shown me through example of living my mom what true love is, and I hope to one day find that. He is more than just my father.

I know you’re a shy person but I hope you have the best day ever. Happy Birthday Daddy, I love you!