To the Girl in the Mirror

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Girl in the mirror,

I want to start this off by saying I’m sorry if what I’m about to say hurts but I know it all needs to be said.

For years now I have been comparing you to someone that you are not.  I remember numerous times asking, “Why can’t you be like that?” or saying, “You’re not trying hard enough.”  I honestly cannot remember the last time I looked at you and was truly happy.  I have noticed other girls and wanted you to be exactly like them, which wasn’t fair to you.  I have said terrible things about you to your face; I have said so many things that I don’t even know how you can stand looking at me.

I have made life so much harder on you than what it should be.  I made you believe that if you just lost a few pounds, dressed like other girls, wore your hair a certain way, hid behind makeup, lived trying to be someone you aren’t you would eventually be happy.  I convinced you that you would never be enough unless you lived your life to please everyone else.  Sometimes I felt hate looking at you and I would also feel hate looking back.  Honestly, I just wanted to punch you to make you disappear for a while.

From day one I should have loved you; I should have been your safe place.  I sincerely apologize for all the times I tore you down.  It has taken me years to realize everything I was doing to you.  I ruined not only your outlook on yourself but also on life.  I pushed it to the point that you dreaded having to see me.  I should have told you to realize how amazing and blessed you truly are.  When you were going through hard times, I should have been there to help and not tear you down even more.  I should have always been there.

So girl in the mirror, I’m going to tell you something I never have.  You are a beautiful young woman with an amazing life ahead of you.  You might not look like all of the other girls but that is what makes you the real you.  If there is someone that doesn’t appreciate the real you, they aren’t worth your time.  Stop trying to lose all the weight, stop changing how you dress or how you wear your hair, wipe off all of that makeup, and be the real you!

I know how hard it is to trust my words after all the hurt I’ve caused, however, I swear to you that my words are true.  You are beautiful and you are enough.

Love Always,
Me

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If I Could Turn Back Time

To: Sarah Elizabeth Corbett (age 14)
From: Sarah Elizabeth Corbett (age 21)

Dear Sarah,

I know this may sound a little strange, but I am writing this letter to you from the future.  I know you are sitting there questioning if this is really me, so I will prove it to you: I know you still continue to sleep with Tag Baby and Pony even though your mother tells you constantly you should put them up because they are fragile. I know your walls are covered with various pictures of memories you never want to forget, and that you are doing everything you can to become the Valedictorian of your senior class.  Who else would know all of this, except for yourself?

I will make this as short as possible, as I know you are overwhelmed with school work and all of your extracurricular activities.

I have some amazing news for you!  You are playing basketball at Pikeville College (which is now the University of Pikeville) and pursuing your dreams.  It’s like Walt Disney said “All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them.”  Courage takes on so many forms:

  • courage to set goals
  • courage to take risks
  • courage to let go and move on
  • courage to follow dreams

Your high school years go by quickly, but you have to take the time to set your goals.  Remember to savor each moment and treasure the memories that each experience evokes.  There will be times you want to give up, but know there isn’t a challenge you can’t face.  Don’t worry about the heartache you will experience from puppy-love. You have a huge life ahead of you.  Don’t enter college thinking it’s just like high school; you will have to learn how to study and manage your time. Never be too shy to ask for help.  Above all, remember to believe in yourself and to utilize your resources. Never-give-up-on-your-dream  psu-to-do-list

I am here to help you enjoy your life in high school more than I know you already will!  Now go show the world just what Sarah can do!

Lots of love,
the older Sarah